On rare occasions at the market checkout line, my mom would offer a quick choice, “Gum or candy?” Travel forward to last night at the plaza, as I admired this unattended car. Window sticker says it’s appraised for $1.5 million. OK. Currently at Carmel by the Sea, we have 70 houses available for $1.5 million or less. Now that’s a cool ride, but I’d be nervous about parking at the Safeway parking lot to buy my Snickers bar. #crazyasswealth #gumorcandy 😮
Interesting that a toddler will remain engaged. He’ll ask questions about the most far fetched curiosities. “Who turns off the lights in the moon?” or “Why do we sleep at night?”
Ever notice how a toddler will remain engaged? He’ll ask questions about the most far fetched curiosities. “Who turns off the lights in the moon?” or “Why do we sleep at night?”
Then we teach them to stop. Tell them, “Go play in your room!” “I’m tired!” or “I have to finish this project. We’ll talk later…”
In essence, we may teach our children to speak, only if the idea is reasonable.
Why do so many adults become laid back and status quo—simply go with the flow? Why is so much potential undiscovered?
Companies assert they need leaders, yet quietly whisper they want more followers. Too many chiefs will cause disruption, yes?
With our kids…today’s action will be tomorrow’s difference.
Take a minute…
There’s a tightness one can feel in the gut. Comes along every so often. And usually at night.
Hemingway wrote so well in his classic The Sun Also Rises, “This was Brett that I had felt like crying about. Then I thought of her walking up the street and stepping into the car, as I had last seen her, and of course, in a little while, I felt like hell again. It is awfully easy to be hard-boiled about everything in the daytime, but at night is another thing.”
During the day we make the big decisions. Purchases, relationship choices, eating and drinking… We are empowered thus behave boldly.
The sun drops and all turns quiet. No matter how loud the TV, the house remains eerily still. You can work on a project, wash clothes, read a book. Doesn’t matter. It is nighttime and the respective seeds of reflection and loneliness rear their powerful heads.
Time to set the timer on the coffee maker, check out Facebook. Sure, that’ll help. Other lost souls wandering around the empty cyber world. Seems not far removed from a one-way trip to the moon…and there you sit alone, staring at the earth below. As you gaze at the blues, greens and brown panorama, you sense lucky people who live their privileged lives. Happy family, mates who love them and always the next day to look forward to.
Or do they tilt their eyes up toward you and wish for solace far away….
Tonight’s cure—pull my son off the computer and make him laugh some. Talk about school—plan a bike ride and pizza for the weekend. Read a little fiction. Get my head out of my ass and then go to sleep.
Tomorrow marks a new morning. And then, there is the night…
Warren Buffett has nothin’ on my young son Tyler. He’s a highly focused and relentless negotiator who won’t quit till he closes the deal and gets what he wants. He won’t hesitate to utilize every weapon, including noise, tears and guilt. That was the case on a recent trek to town.
We were headed for Walmart to buy cut-rate Goldfish Crackers and a few essential items for the house and then planned to hit a movie before dinner. All good, right?
Well, seems Tyler had a different strategy for the trip. There was $15 in leftover birthday money packed in his blue and red Spiderman wallet. Lots of dough for a little guy, but apparently five bucks short of his desired treasure—Playstation’s video game, “Bolt.”
“Dad, I need five more dollars to buy Bolt,” he said.
“Keep up your chores, save your money and you might have enough soon.”
“Can I give you my allowance next week?”
I smiled at Tyler’s savvy attempt to leverage my money to help purchase his investment. “Sorry Bud,” I replied. You need to have all the dough first. Save up for a few weeks.”
“Come on Dad, it’s only five bucks. I promise to pay it back.”
Okay, I was about to spend money on crackers shaped like cartoon fish, and five dollars is not so much these days, but there was a chance to teach my son a lesson on money management.
“Sorry Tyler, no.”
“That’s not fair! You always give Sis what she wants.”
“No, I don’t, and the answer is still no. You’ll have to save up, or you can buy something different.”
“I don’t really want to see a movie. Can we use that money?”
“No, we cannot. Stop bugging me about it, okay?”
Tyler entered that 10-year-old world of self-pity and eagle-eye stares toward his ever so cruel father. The hum of the engine was quickly overwhelmed by the growing silence of my wronged boy. On I drove.
Soon we reached the intersection which led to the snarled entryway of Walmart. I love that, no matter who you are—once inside, all class distinction evaporates. Whether you come from a castle on the hill, home in the ‘burbs or under the bridge, you have reached a level field. We all push through the same narrow aisles with dueling carts and then have to wait in line with everyone else. No one is spared the pain.
I navigated the right turn and began the slow troll to parking hell. As often is the case, a destitute man was standing at the corner, holding a sign, which read, “PLEASE HELP. NEED FOOD.”
I’ve become somewhat accustomed to that scene and usually avoid eye contact. You never know if they are starving or just looking for easy money. Right?
This time was different.
Here was a man in his early 20s with the saddest and hungriest look I’d ever seen. His brown eyes were swollen, as if he’d been crying, yet through that lonely and sallow face, he emitted a faraway smile–as if to suggest a pride of sorts. He wore dirty jeans, blue canvas boat shoes and a designer dress shirt that had seen better days. His blonde hair was relatively short, though unkempt and he sported a shell necklace around a spindly neck. Nothing extraordinary, typical street corner homeless guy.
Except for a few things.
He would not look up. This young man was clearly uncomfortable asking for money. He just held up the sign and kept his head down, as car after car passed by. He made it easy for them–no eye contact–no obligation. He was also on the wrong side of the road, which would require a driver to stop and then lean over and out the passenger window to give him money. This was not your seasoned down and outer.
As I braked to a stop, I thought of my oldest son, Ric, who is 22. He and I also spent a store trip or two debating whether he could buy the newest toy with money he did not have. He would often use his brother Nathan, three years younger, to be his wingman.
Ultimately though, Ric drifted away. He was a rebellious sort who tended to navigate toward the wrong friends. He also split his time between two homes, and it was easy to ignore the calls for help.
A few years ago, he started to get in trouble with the law. He joined a gang and became addicted to street drugs. Now, he only calls when he wants money for more of those drugs. I’ve always been counseled to say no, as it will just enable him to continue the lifestyle. He has since learned to say that he’s hungry, which gets me every time. Often times I let the phone ring–my new learned technique of avoidance, which makes it a little easier. So many nights I’ve tossed and turned thinking about him going to sleep cold and hungry, though he now has a bed and three squares a day with his current six-month jail sentence. My stress now lies on what will occur when he’s released.
“Tyler, I want you to hand this guy something,” I said, while I rolled down the window and pulled out my wallet.
Tyler straightened up and looked out nervously. “Uh, okay Dad.”
I passed him five one-dollar bills. Tyler and I made eye contact, and then I motioned my head towards the slowly approaching fellow. Tyler looked over at him and then again at me. My wink signaled it was okay to hand the money over. He tentatively put his hand through the open window, as if feeding a wild tiger.
“Thank you,” said the young man rather awkwardly, as he grabbed the bills. I waved and then started to pull forward, when he put his hands up, still clutching the flapping money. The impatient drivers behind me scowled, but I stopped anyway. He moved in closer to the car until his chin touched the partly rolled up window, forming a dramatic frame that again exposed a lost and scared man-child. He stared into Tyler’s eyes, and my son was transfixed. He extended his right hand to Tyler, who looked over to me for approval. I nodded, and he turned back, put his own hand out there and then exchanged one of those nouveau-sic handshake/fist bumps that I can never figure out.
“I’m Phil,” said the man, as he awkwardly grabbed the bills. He then pursued his lips until a boyish grin took over. “My kid can eat tonight. Thanks, Bud.”
Tyler was wide-eyed as Phil turned to walk back to his spot on the sidewalk. To the relief of the line of cars now behind us, we drove forward. I yelled out, “Maybe you should go to the other side of the road. More people would stop!”
I don’t know if he heard, but I suspect this would not be his primary means to make a living in the future. A glance in the rear-view mirror showed a young woman, bundled in a raggedy serape, walking towards him. She was holding a small child, who seemed to be asleep.
We drove on.
I found a parking space fairly close to the entry and pulled in. For a moment we sat in silence.
“What did you think about that Tyler?”
“Good. He was hungry.”
“What do you think of me giving him the five dollars that would help you buy Bolt?”
“Oh yeah. Um…well he needed it worse. I think it’s good.”
We climbed out of the car and walked toward the store.
“Are you sure I can’t buy Bolt today?”
“Yes Tyler, I’m sure.”
I waited for the expected, “But Dad, you gave money to that guy. Why can’t I have some?”
It never happened. Instead, we finished shopping, watched our movie and had a great evening. Tyler decided to save his money for another day.
That was three weeks ago. Since then, Tyler is back to inventing new ways to separate me from my cash. Yesterday though, I overheard him brag to his sister, “We gave a man some money, and he fed his baby with it.
“That’s cool,” replied 11-year-old Taylor, while she continued to read her e-mail.
I gazed at my two youngest for a moment and smiled. I felt so lucky to have these next years to teach, protect and fight for them. I became lost in the moment until the ring of the phone jarred me out of it.
“You have a collect call from an inmate at West County Detention Center.”
“Ric,” spoke my boy, as he followed the operator’s instructions to say his name.
“If you wish to accept, dial one.”
“Hello son, how are you,” I said quietly. “I miss you so much.”
I wiped my eyes and waited to hear the sounds of a young boy asking for a few bucks to buy a Nintendo-64 game. Instead, amidst the roaring background of fellow inmates and loud TV noise, my son simply said, “I miss you too Dad. Wish we were together right now.”
I wiped my eyes again and sniffled. “I’ve never left you, Ric.”
To myself, I thought he has never really left me either.
“Dad?” he asked in a familiar tone.
“Do you think you could put a few bucks in my account. I need shoes, and they never give me enough to eat.”
“I’ll put it in tonight. You sleep good now. I love you.”
“Love you too Dad. Goodnight.”
And so, the lessons go.
Note: Names have been changed, but yes, this happened…
Note to preachers and barkers, “Now” is not the time, rather a measurement, and like thelowly yardstick, requires a start and end to be relevant. Therefore, only past and future can be measured, right?
Take that feeling of being truly unwound…relaxed…you know what I’m talking about? Where you actually pay notice to rustling leaves, hear the chirping birds and then wonder, which tree are they perched in? You feel the breeze on your skin, smell the flowers, breathe on purpose…
Well, some days do not quite arrive like that—agreed?
Cause when you truly unwind—feel, see, hear and smell, you’ll take the time to remember—wax nostalgic if you will. And when that falling sun turns to dusk and nary a memory comes forth, save the usual reruns, you realize that a bunch of hours, days, weeks—even years have passed you by.
So, how to remain in that state of unwound. Hmmm–will it cause harm to avoid the fast paced swirl of work and habit?
Believe me, I’ve tried. To zip degree of success.
Why is that?
Is it an instinctual human defense mechanism that creeps in to prevent boredom? An ADHD fueled response that pushes those damn roses away from my nose?
Enough already! I want to stay unwound. How do I make that happen? Yoga? Meditation? Pay a self righteous, soft spoken guru a small fortune for a couple days of clapping to drums and hugging my seat mates? A book?
Rule all that out—tried it.
Electronics seem to play a big role in this distraction. Do I limit those evil devices? Or use technology to my advantage? So many questions and the same old answers.
Best one I’ve heard lately made me scuffaw. Who told me?
No one. And then again, everyone.
Simply take the time to breathe. Feel the air go in—let it out.
The headline screams loud, “Social Media Domination!”
Oh come now! Are Facebook, Instagram, Linkedin and such the “aha” lights of your life? And maybe your business too? Are you drunk on Facebook?
Yes, the hype sounds good on paper, er uh, I mean, electronic media. After all, I can strategically locate, contact and then woo people I barely know or have never met. And it’s all on the Internet, so it’s not like watching them window-to-window with a telescope.
Certain friends of mine envision a pseudo horror society, where all privacy is stripped and our souls laid naked for the world to do with what it will. But…what about the articles that quote otherwise?
“Such a simple, safe and effective way to network.”
What I see is, “Never leave the basement. Stay in touch while you lounge in your worn skivvies, sip Red Bull and munch on Cheetos.”
Is it creepy like that yet? Let’s examine…
Not so long ago, it was difficult for many introverted folks to start a conversation. Awkward social skills, rural homes and simple laziness also introduced a certain degree of separation amongst human animals.
Then one day, along comes this abundance of online bounty, called INFORMATION You Google up a clever line or two and then jump right in—the social walls have tumbled! Let me give you an example…
Anne Rice, the author, is one of my Facebook friends. I have never met her, but nonetheless, she is someone I admire, therefore it made sense to take the opportunity to gain exposure to her “personal” side.
Two days after she accepted my friend request, I commented on a post she had written. My prose was drooly, complimentary and yes, long and drawn out. “This’ll get her attention,” I confidently thought.
Well, imagine my delight, when nine days later I receive an alert from Facebook. “Anne Rice commented on your wall post!”
OMG, I thought. My idol has recognized me.
Had to take a moment to calm myself, till I was ready to open the app and reveal the sacred words of my big time celebrity friend.
Shaky fingers typed that familiar user name, “Getalife,” followed by the password, “Seriously.” I gazed expectantly, and clicked through to the post and there it was…emblazoned in lower case font: “thanks”
“She likes me, she really, really likes me!” I shouted.
“Probably just her assistant,” said one downer friend of mine.
“No! She said in her profile that she doesn’t use an assistant for Facebook. It was her! In fact, I’ll bet she read my post over and over. Probably saved it and shared with her really important author friends. We connected!”
Alright, back to center. It is my experience that a good solid human connection should be made face to face. Shake hands, hug, kiss, make eye contact, talk, listen, laugh, cry—all that old fashion stuff from back in the day.
Second best is a phone call. Whether landline or cell, it’s all good. Same as above, sans handshake, hug, kiss and eye contact. Still a live engagement.
I’ll bypass texts, note cards and smoke signals to move right in to Facebook. So much has been said about its virtues, as well as the dark side.
Lots of validity for both.
The way I see it—just as it was somewhat “unfashionable” to shop at Wal-Mart a few years ago; so many folks (Maybe you?) say, “I never go on Facebook.”
Um hmmm. Like the Yogi Berra quote, “Nobody goes there anymore. It’s too crowded.”
Let’s put it out there. Just about anyone who owns a computer and has Internet connection is exposed to Facebook and has likely made a choice to join, or not to join. A recent Statista report stated 77% of all Americans participate in social networking—much of that through Facebook. Another recent poll states that 95% of Americans bought something at Walmart last year.
There’s an old joke, told way too often by stand-up comics… “A recent survey showed that 80% of people masturbate…and the other 20% are liars.”
See the point?
So, what does Facebook do…really.
Some say it’s to “Keep in touch with friends and family.” Sounds reasonable enough.
I say though, it helps to avoid that overdue phone call or drop-by, and instead provides pseudo maintenance to a lazy personal or business relationship.
Of course; on a phone call, you can blabber away and it’s mostly all forgotten by hang-up time. True, but—you connect. With Facebook, on the other hand, you write a few clever sentences, then change your mind and word it all differently—again and again; till finally you have arrived at just the right blurb. Thank God for the backspace key, eh?
Your “timeline friends” will read your post and then sometimes reply in kind. And don’t forget—those same words will stay on your respective walls till the end of time.
Others may troll Facebook, simply for the fun of it. That’s great—if you consider stalking a hobby.
Where else can you peek at intimate testimonials or “accidentally” discover who “friended” whom. Many a domestic battle has been waged on the hallowed grounds of this site.
Still others may say their reasons are to “express my views.” I suppose that makes some sense. I wonder though, if you choose this venue because no one really cares about those views in the flesh and blood world. Write an awkward quote penned by you—or worse, steal something from a buzzword poet and call it your “inspiration.”
I’ll say it, “No one cares!”
OK, I’ve ranted my piece. Made light of Facebook and certainly myself. I too, participate in the hubbub, and despite the negatives, find it a refreshing and simple means to shrink our world to a smaller neighborhood.
So—next time I write a thought or muse on my timeline, you have every right to pummel it with thoughts of how you really feel or you can be extra nice and say it is cute and clever. Just don’t ignore me. Several hundred friends who don’t pay attention to something I took so much thought to say….