Enter The Night

There’s a tightness one can feel in the gut. Comes along every so often. And usually at night.

Hemingway wrote so well in his classic The Sun Also Rises, “This was Brett that I had felt like crying about. Then I thought of her walking up the street and stepping into the car, as I had last seen her, and of course, in a little while, I felt like hell again. It is awfully easy to be hard-boiled about everything in the daytime, but at night is another thing.”

During the day we make the big decisions. Purchases, relationship choices, eating and drinking… We are empowered thus behave boldly.

The sun drops and all turns quiet. No matter how loud the TV, the house remains eerily still. You can work on a project, wash clothes, read a book. Doesn’t matter. It is nighttime and the respective seeds of reflection and loneliness rear their powerful heads.

Time to set the timer on the coffee maker, check out Facebook. Sure, that’ll help. Other lost souls wandering around the empty cyber world. Seems not far removed from a one-way trip to the moon…and there you sit alone, staring at the earth below. As you gaze at the blues, greens and brown panorama, you sense lucky people who live their privileged lives. Happy family, mates who love them and always the next day to look forward to.

Or do they tilt their eyes up toward you and wish for solace far away….

Tonight’s cure—pull my son off the computer and make him laugh some. Talk about school—plan a bike ride and pizza for the weekend. Read a little fiction.  Get my head out of my ass and then go to sleep.

Tomorrow marks a new morning. And then, there is the night…

Back To It

IMG_2047I’ve had this damn blog since 2009 or so. Posted a couple hundred stories–some were ok, some terrible and lazy and some were fucking awesome.

So last week I decided to strip the site and pull everything down. Not cause I’m embarrassed about the shitty posts, not to reinvent myself, not from ADHD tendencies (well maybe a little), but before I croak one day,  I’d like to have credible representation of my work.

Gonna repost some of the good, bad and ugly and also post a lot of new and original material. My dream state slurs that it may cause me to publish that book, while my sloth side says it’s too hard or too late. We’ll see…

The theme will always head toward the truth–and food (you’ll understand), dirt, smudges and raw expression that needs to go to your “to read now” stack.

Follow me–interact–tell me you love my beautiful writing or blast publicly how much my trashy prose sucks. I don’t give a fuck what you say–just wanna hear from you one way or the other.

Look for my first post–if you are on my Facebook, I’ll remind you!